saved

i am human.
i am far from perfect.
i spill stuff.
i cuss.

i sin. again and again.

there are days when dark clouds hover over me, it felt like a never ending saga.
the fog so thick i lose my way,
almost succumbing to the choking sensation.

i feel alone.
a lonely place indeed.

but i know that is far from the truth.

far.
false.

for He is always there, in fact He went before me.

He fought the war for me.

He loved me.

His love is so great that even on days where i sink to the sea bed.
when i bury myself underground.
helplessly trying to get away from everything.
hiding in shame.

He still finds me.

arms wide open, ready to take me in His arms again. He is the Father who comforts me when the world gets too much to bear.

When I feed the fire to the point where I couldn't take the heat.

and for that i am saved.
and because of that i am still breathing.

and because He lives, I can face the storms.

26-08-2018